My Beloved – Post by Donna HarrisMarch 22, 2013 - Author: Alva - Comments are closed
On March 19, 2013 at 2:30 AM, Alva finally gave up the fierce battle he was waging with Parkinson’s. His steady and speedy decline culminated with the increasing aspiration of food and water that caused him to choke and cough violently. Over the past two weeks, he got noticeably weaker and finally told me, “I am too tired to fight any more.” From the viewpoint of someone who loved him, it was challenging to watch him struggle so valiantly. So his family released him to the universe in hopes he would find peace and fulfillment.
Over the last two months, Alva found that as his physical capabilities deteriorated, his mind sharpened and focused more all the time. He literally could not fall asleep at night because he saw so many possibilities and became mentally energized. He began this blog, started a new book, investigated DNA testing and its possibilities regarding PD, and finally the power of the mind to create outside of itself even after the body is dead. It was this latter “epiphany” as he described it that allowed him to release self destruction as a choice for ending life. As such, he gave away the remaining handguns that he had in the house, one of which was hidden in the side pock of his recliner. When the recipient of that gift withdrew it, I was in shock at its presence. Alva was pleased with himself for having kept the secret so long.
So it is with love and appreciation I release Alva into his self constructed universe. I am so grateful that he is no longer suffering. The presence of his unique and fascinating person will never be replaced in my lifetime. Like air that fills the body, Alva invaded me and filled every fiber of my being with the power of his person. Only with his departure have I realized just how powerful his presence was. My eyes fill with the constant omnipresence of him in my life. I love you Alva.
Your wife and soul mate.
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